See, I'm a cappricorn. I love being intelligent. I love intelligent people. Idc how he looks, I need brains and maturity, a lil goofiness too haha. I am a 16 year old girl, a 12th grader. Lets get a flashback to grade 6. I see a new guy at school who joined almost at term end, and he struck me as a competition the very first day. Yes I was a topper. My best friend already knew him, they were both doctors' kids and lived in the same area. Let's say my best friend is 'S' and this guy is 'A'. For some reason, my bestfriend didn't really like A since forever. They were true enemies. So time passes by, 6th goes by, then 7th, now its 8th end. My bestfriend's mother gets a new job in another town and they move out. This is when I disclose (just to her obv) I have a crush on A. 7th end was when I started liking him. I'm a pretty reserved person, so told my bestie in late 8th. Then goes 9th, the year I was most obsessed with him. I would go to school because of him. The sole reason was him. Omg what an year it was!We were a team of 4 people who did a science congress, he was also in obviously, because of which I had a great memorable time. Roaming around school, playing thumb fights and having actual fights with him and what not. I never really said "I loved him", not becuse I didn't, but because, me being a cappricorn, does this emotional stuff very very rarely; and by 'very' I mean, not even say 'love you' to my family. Ya its wierd.Anyways, 9th passes by too. We were the closest competitors but also good friends. Now comes 10th, when I move out of town because my mother got a better job. I felt terrible. I planned on telling him I liked him, but could never actually gather the courage to face him that way. I would say he was kinda good looking (but definitely not "hot as fuck") and I knew girls confessed him earlier too (there were many who thought intelligence was sexy), but I just couldn't, I'd wierd myself out lol.Fast foreward to 12th grade now. I'm no longer a studious topper, he gets his national test ranks in 40s to 200s. I so lag at 2000s.And I still am crushing on him so damn hard, even harder when I dreamt about him 2 days ago. I know he does not have any feelings for me, and there's absolutely no chance now. I hope we never meet again, but if we do by a slight chance, I hope he likes me back too.Although I haven't met this person in over 2 years, I'm still so so obsessed with him; doesn't change the fact of me being a loser, couldn't tell him I liked him for almost 5 years lol. No worries, I'm not that sad, its all okay. I'm fine and I still really really like him. Ya thats that.Thanks for reading haha:)

See, I'm a cappricorn. I love being intelligent. I love intelligent people. Idc how he looks, I need brains and maturity, a lil goofiness too haha. I am a 16 year old girl, a 12th grader. Lets get a flashback to grade 6. I see a new guy at school who joined almost at term end, and he struck me as a competition the very first day. Yes I was a topper. My best friend already knew him, they were both doctors' kids and lived in the same area. Let's say my best friend is 'S' and this guy is 'A'. For some reason, my bestfriend didn't really like A since forever. They were true enemies. So time passes by, 6th goes by, then 7th, now its 8th end. My bestfriend's mother gets a new job in another town and they move out. This is when I disclose (just to her obv)  I have a crush on A. 7th end was when I started liking him. I'm a pretty reserved person, so told my bestie in late 8th. Then goes 9th, the year I was most obsessed with him. I would go to school because of him. The sole reason was him. Omg what an year it was!We were a team of 4 people who did a science congress, he was also in obviously, because of which I had a great memorable time. Roaming around school, playing thumb fights and having actual fights with him and what not. I never really said "I loved him", not becuse I didn't, but because, me being a cappricorn, does this emotional stuff very very rarely; and by 'very' I mean, not even say 'love you' to my family. Ya its wierd.Anyways, 9th passes by too. We were the closest competitors but also good friends. Now comes 10th, when I move out of town because my mother got a better job. I felt terrible. I planned on telling him I liked him, but could never actually gather the courage to face him that way. I would say he was kinda good looking (but definitely not "hot as fuck") and I knew girls confessed him earlier too (there were many who thought intelligence was sexy), but I just couldn't, I'd wierd myself out lol.Fast foreward to 12th grade now. I'm no longer a studious topper, he gets his national test ranks in 40s to 200s. I so lag at 2000s.And I still am crushing on him so damn hard, even harder when I dreamt about him 2 days ago. I know he does not have any feelings for me, and there's absolutely no chance now. I hope we never meet again, but if we do by a slight chance, I hope he likes me back too.Although I haven't met this person in over 2 years, I'm still so so obsessed with him; doesn't change the fact of me being a loser, couldn't tell him I liked him for almost 5 years lol. No worries, I'm not that sad, its all okay. I'm fine and I still really really like him. Ya thats that.Thanks for reading haha:)