I used to have a partner, randomly I feel out of love. I loved him a lot but I couldnt stay with him if I dont like him. this was in december. until then I miss him a lot, i cant explain how much I miss him. I hate myself for the fact that I cant keep my feelings straight for somone. this has happened to me many times. I just cant handle this anymore. everythings reminds me of him and I just wanna cry. I love him and I hurted him, I cant forgive myself for that. I just want to go back to the past or catch feelings again or idk. I need him, I need to forget him but I just cant. he is a big part of me, of my heart. I wish I could talk to him like I used to do. I wish I never lost feelings. this is all my fault.sorry for the mistakes, I dont speak english very well.