I am a man in his mid 30’s. My mental health is so much more fucked up than I let others see. I am sad, depressed and anxiety-riddled mess like 98% of the time. I have to hide all of that from my wife. She needs me to provide for us and I don’t think she fully understands sometimes. I have to hide it at my job because there are a lot of people who depend on me being a certain way and for their sake, I can’t be the person I truly am. It is exhausting keeping up this charade that everything is fine all the time.
People tell me I’m too intense or too much and I don’t know what to do or say to change that. I feel like no one gets me, no one understands me, and I just feel so alone.