I’m so tired now. I feel like I’ve been trying so hard already. I don’t know if there’s something I could not see. I always question myself like am I not doing enough? Or am I too dumb. What’s wrong with me? I know that everyone’s struggling but why does it have to be so hard. I don’t know anymore I don’t know I really don’t know. I want to cry my eyes out. Maybe I want a boyfriend. I maybe having inferiority complex. I want to be trusted. I want to trust others. What shall I do ? What shall I even do? I’ve been putting this smile. I’m scared . So scared that I’m worried I would go crazy some day. Why? Why does it have to have so hard? Why I just don’t know why. I want to tell things. But woolen would say it’s easy I’ve been there too. It didn’t even bother me. Why? Is it me who’s so weak. Is it me who’s being a trouble to everyone. Why is no one seeing my efforts. Why aren’t my words reaching them. Please tell me. I want to know. I want to cry. Tears just come out involuntarily these days. I want to control my feelings.