i'm just tired. Please let me rest. I want to be happy without worrying what will happen next. I want to do thins without restraining myself. I want to just lay down in a secluded peaceful place in which I am the only one who knows where it is located. I want to be alone. Is it bad to just leave everything behind and not worry about them anymore? I just feel empty. I am disappointed with myself. I want to change but I just can't push myself to do it. I badly want to change myself into a better person. I just want to feel complete and satisfied with the life I have now. I feel so heavy. I want to be closer to God and I want to live under his guidance but I keep on doing things that may disappoint him. I just want to be a better daughter, granddaughter, sister, and friend. Just please.