Hi ! Im a young teenSo my parents have split custody of me, i go with my dad on the weekends and stay with my mom during the weeks. My mother has 2 younger kids, my half siblings (1 and 6) whose father isnt in their life. She recently got a new boyfriend who doesnt want kids as well. Over time ive been realizing how everything came into play.My mom has been "working" but shes been working from home. She says that she cant watch the kids so she says its my responsiblity to. When i was younger she made me watch the 6 year old while she went out drinking as an alcholic, she would guilt me into doing it and now i feel shes doing the same thing again. At first it wasnt that bad but now i find i cant sleep because i have dreams about something happening to the kids when my mother isnt giving them any mind. The one year old walked out the house once and into the street while my mother wasnt paying any attention. I feel like all she does is cook at this point, im the one who bathes them, puts them on a scedule, puts them into the car, helps the 6 year old brush their teeth, cleans, changes their clothes, does their hair, etcetc. If the baby has a shitty diaper my mother doesnt want to change, she wont change the diaper. Ive tried waiting it out to see if she will change the baby but she doesnt, when im not there she will leave the baby in the same shitty diaper for hours if she can, if nobody is around. I feel like my childhood is getting stolen, im not allowed to go anywhere because i need to watch the kids, not able to see my friends- and when i ask she suggests that we stand outside their house on the sidewalk and talk outside for 10 minutes and leave . She says shes not comfortable with them no matter how much she knows them. This makes me even more upset than her just saying no. One time i came back from a friends house and she greeted me so bitterly saying "welcome back to life with us" like i made life so hard for her . When im at my dads she asks me to come with her to watch the baby so i cant get a break.I understand babysitting sometimes, i love my siblings, but she doesnt let me get any me time. Im not in extracurriculars anymore because of this, i havent had time to do my summer work. She guilts me into saying if i dont watch them something bad will happen to them, i need to keep an eye on them at all times, she cant watch them at all even when shes on her phone or watching tv.I feel selfish for feeling this way, though, because we are still in the pandemic so its not easy to get a baby sitter. But she doesnt treat me like a daughter anymore, she just wants me from my dad to watch kids and clean. But even then, nothing is good enough for her. I have no idea what to do, im so stressed. If you actually read all this thank you 😅