Hope you know what's coming on your way though you aren't gonna get effected. My emotions never mattered to you so how pea brained of me to expect you to have a reaction seeing this. You've put me through a metamorphosis of different kind of toiling pain... A scrutiny that will remain with me for the rest of the eternity I'm a part of, not only because it was a stumbling block but also because it opened my eyes to the devil residing in a human brain. You paved your way into my life, showed me a non existent world full of what I presumed to be your emotions but ended up being simple notions of your fabricated feelings and the dreadful part being you left me in that world alone as if you never really wanted to be there with me. It was a mess. Our whole story was a mess. I kept myself aside relenquishly trying to disinfect our relationship. But then I realised it was never the relationship that was blame worthy because there never existed one. It was always you. There's a huge contrast between what's called a toxic relationship and what's called a relationship. That contrast can never be diminished and end up equalising both of them. Moving on from this was the hardest thing I've ever done. But never misconstrue that it was moving on from your hallucinatory love. It was moving on from a relationship that I wanted to take care of like my own child. It was moving on from the enormous amount of throbbing pain that your toxicity gave me. It was moving on from hearing the most painful and excruciating things about myself that were never true from every hook and cranny. They were blunt and brutal lies that broke a person in the most fastidious way. They showed the level of understanding, respect, compassion and trust you had towards me. But that's where you've failed. You've tried to make me believe that you were nowhere at fault and it was me who was accountable for every single mistake that you made. I trusted you more than myself but I didn't let that trust fail my own dignity. And that's something I'll remain proud about. You lost me. There's no loss here for me. Right now probably life may lead us on different trajectories but one fine day you'll look back and cognize what you've lost. But there will be nothing else to do for you other than sympathising your own deprivation. -a soul you bruised.