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Today’s my final day

Today I have to die I can’t take feeling like this any more my mind feels clouded and shattered. I’ve come to the end of a very long period of severe anxiety and depression I have no respite not even when I close my eyes I have confused intrusive some times delusional thoughts which I can’t bare anymore. I’m hardly sleeping eating functioning and I’m dissociating constantly and feels like I have another voice in my head but it’s my own. I try to calm myself breathing exercises, relaxation techniques, meds tried CBT nothing takes the constant fear away. I slept for maybe two hours last night and i couldn’t settle however hard I tried. I don’t want to go into a hospital I don’t want to try more meds I can’t wait to be helped until next week if that happens my mind is constantly busy I’m constantly scared and confused I can’t cope. They tell me it’s not psychosis although I have some of the traits delusions some auditory, olfactory hallucinations and I don’t disagree with the cause I’m still in reality which only makes this worse I’m only too aware of all my sensations and symptoms and it’s too much for me to bare. So even though I have my loving wonderful family our lovely home beautiful cats I have to do this I actually have to. I’m scared of course but no other option now it’s too late for me all too late. I have done the prep I’ve readied the paperwork I just have to do

it now. So that’s it 36 years old mother of one engaged to a wonderful man and I’m ending it all today no more pain no more hurt no more confusion nothing nothingness that’s it. Goodbye





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Re: Today’s my final day

DONT DO IT

No don’t . Do you believe in God then don’t kill your self don’t think of death trust me there’s a long road ahead salvation at the end please just pray and trust Him . Ik how it feels to want to die but it’s not worth it okay. 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂


Hey,dying is absolutely not the solution.Sometimes,life is unfair and at the end of the day,you're really frustrated.Believe me,even though I'm still a college student,I have a lot of responsibilities.I have opted for subjects,I don't like and suffer all day in class,trying to understand the logics.I have to go to tuition everyday even weekends,I have to wake up at 5 in order to avoid getting scolded by the teacher for being late.The teachers I have are very sarcastic and always talking nonsense to me.I can't even absent myself even during festive period cause my teacher believe that only study will ensure our life.

I want to reply back but I can't,I even want to leave the tuition but my parents won't allow me to do so.Briefly,I keep everything inside and sometimes I do think dying is a better option but I'm too scared to hurt others because I know,there are people out there who love me more than I do.So,I can't hurt them by killing myself.


I don't know you, but you suck at life! it's time to boss up! Lift yourself and don't wait for your pathetic mindset to eat you up! Don't be a Loser! Woman up! You're tire but so are we, but we don't give up. Fight! Tell yourself that. I'm not being mean, but life is life, it's either you make it or break it. We will all die eventually so why not make the best out of it. You're too focus on dying and being helpless but the truth is, your not. You even made it to us. You have a say in this world, and that's more than enough for you to continue your story. Ending something is uncertain. In this world of ambiguity, you are what's certain. Help yourself.






I don't know you, but you suck at life! it's time to boss up! Lift yourself and don't wait for your pathetic mindset to eat you up! Don't be a Loser! Woman up! You're tired but so are we, but we don't give up. Fight! Tell yourself that. I'm not being mean, but life is life, it's either you make it or break it. We will all die eventually so why not make the best out of it. You're too focus on dying and being helpless but the truth is, you're not. You even made it to us. You have a say in this world, and that's more than enough for you to continue your story. Ending something is uncertain. In this world of ambiguity, you are what's certain. Help yourself.


I don't know you, but you suck at life! it's time to boss up! Lift yourself and don't wait for your pathetic mindset to eat you up! Don't be a Loser! Woman up! You're tired but so are we, but we don't give up. Fight! Tell yourself that. I'm not being mean, but life is life, it's either you make it or break it. We will all die eventually so why not make the best out of it. You're too focus on dying and being helpless but the truth is, you are not. You even made it to us. You have a say in this world, and that's more than enough for you to continue your story. Ending something is uncertain. In this world of ambiguity, you are what's certain. Help yourself.


hey man please dont. i literally have a same life like yours. anxiety and depression and panic attack every now and then.Even i get many suicidal thoughts and feel like ending everything but i haven't. See man no one here is eternal. everyone's death is planned . if you have to plan something plan your future. see you have fought all along please just dont give up. you think it's easy but dude it is not.we are all alive for some reasons. everyone is. go to some new place, meditate, try to indulge in some activites . these things wont help much but they will keep you busy and will prevent the suicidal feeling. just for me( i know it's a lot to ask) dont end your life. im a 17 yr old girl asking you to not end your life. please take care. Things will surely get better, please don't




Honestly, i should be telling you to stop but I am doing the same thing right now. I don't think ill actually do it but i think of it all the time. You will become my hero honestly, but i believe in you. I wanna switch lives with you right nowwww. For some reason I want to be abused (Like hit with a belt or being raped). I have no clue why so I wish to be everyone who's commited suicide.