Tonight I got so far as to actually write a suicide note to my parents. Asking them to love me enough to let me go. To remember that they couldn't have done anything better or different tom change things. I planned on packing up my whole room to make things easier and less painful for everyone. I have never gotten this close. Things have never been this bad and to be honest if it wasn't for the thought that I would have to write a letter to my youngest brother explaining to him that even though his "Annie" loved him more than anything in this world she couldn't stay. It was that that made me snap. I couldn't write any further. I couldn't imagine his little body curled up in my empty bed because I was no longer there to sleep next to in the mornings. I couldn't imagine not being there for his first day of school or his first match. I know it's getting worse but how can I ask for help when nothing is suppose to be wrong. Tonight was the night my little brother and the thought of him going through life wondering what happend to me saved me
5 months ago
Re: Tonight was...
Pls don't I know life can have burdens but I lost my family the exact same way and many of them were unsure but one by one they left me and the thought of another family being destroyed just because you think your not needed .listen if you weren't loved your mother wouldn't have given birth to you your father wouldn't have cared and helped you in many ways I envy you you have a family that I could only dream of as all of them left me I am currently texting from an orphanage using the only phone you see many children here have never even heard of a loving family and you have one so give life a chance seek help for it is in trying time that strong souls are taken to the almighty