I’m 14 years old. When I was 7 my cousin would do dirty things to me. I can’t get the icky and disgusting feeling off of me. It’s the only memory I have from the ages of 1-7. I keep washing my face and showering over and over again but it won’t go away. I have to look at him every Saturday and act like everything is ok. I’m so tired. I’m so so tired.