I know I’m a toxic girlfriend. I didn’t realise it till recently. My boyfriend has been under depression lately and I am certain I contributed to that. I feel like I even sabotage the relationship at times. I told myself I’ll be more understanding towards him but I still lash out at him when I think he has done something wrong - even though I know he is depressed. I am the worst sort of person there is: hurting someone who is already down. I keep telling myself to learn to keep my mouth shut but I don’t know how. All I’ve been googling lately is: How to support depressed boyfriend? how can I keep my mouth shut? I am a toxic girlfriend. What can I do? I feel like I’m getting nowhere with it. My boyfriend doesn’t wish to seek professional help. I feel like I need it tbh. But the cost...gosh. I’m just gonna try meditating I suppose. Heard it helps.