I hate my family with a passion. My mother is emotionally manipulative and extremely mentally ill she is also extremely co-dependent and thinks everyone is losers unless they are exactly like her parents and we live like her childhood. (My grandparents had 3 kids and my grandpa would work overtime and bring in all the money for the family) She has many illnesses. PTSD, Anxiety, Depression, Bipolar disorder, etc. My mom was abused physically and emotionally by her alcoholic ex-boy friend (who she still talks to cause it’s the only “friend” she has) My parents are divorced and my dad lives across the country. He is cheap and always lies and makes excuses to me. My sister is dealing with her own stuff and trying to move out. (She is 21, and I’m 16) my mother projects all her issues onto me and my sister. She yells at us constantly even when we are being agreeable and reasonable. I have my own mental illnesses and issues that I’m trying very hard to work on, but seems impossible when I can’t get any of my “friends” to come over because my mom is insane. I believe I may have ADHD or Dyscalculia. I struggle with school and maintaining my emotions. My entire family is toxic. My grandparents feed off the drama. My cousins are doing drugs and and binge drinking constantly I have no escape from this. I’ve started self-harming again and so far I’m about 2 weeks clean. I can’t talk to any of my friends from my hometown because I feel like all I do is talk about my problems. I have no outlet I’ve gone to therapy before but it’s just so expensive and I feel terrible asking my parents, but they struggle way more than I do. I just don’t know what to do. I doubt anybody will read this, or care, but I just need to rant. If you do read this, thank you for your time!