I got into a really toxic relationship while not even looking for a relationship. I thought he’d just fuck me then move on like what I was used to. But he asked me out and I had no choice but to say yes even though he’d already made me cry during only my first month knowing him. The emotional abuse hasn’t been as bad as it used to be and I’d started conditioning myself to it. But tonight I started over thinking a lot of things about myself as a whole and asked for his support so I’d stop panicking. He almost caused me to take my life tonight. He made me realize that I mean less than dirt to anyone and everyone, and told me multiple times to stfu while I was having a serious episode. I’m in love with him you guys, but I can’t recognize myself anymore.