I want to leave the world but I don’t know how. How do I say goodbye? I’ve re written my note a thousand times. How do I go without pain? And what if it’s worse when you die. What if your taken to another level or you are just forced to face your biggest fears over and over again. I want to die but I’m too scared. Im only 14 and I can barely deal with the stress of school, my appearance and pleasing people how am I supposed to live to the average age of 71. It’s not like adulthood could be any easier and they can’t find a cure for my disability. It’ll always be the same, I’ll always be treated different. I’m debating wether I talk to someone and try and save myself or accept defeat and see what happens next hoping that’s I leave being all stress and ongoing pain.