It has been a while coming now, I have been struggling holding my sexuality a secret from my family and more so I wanted them to know all of me and accept me for everything I was including my sexuality. I have been hiding this "secret" inside of me for 5 years from everyone. But 2 years ago I decided to let my closest friends know the whole truth and for the first time I said it out aloud "I am a lesbian!" As I said these words for the first time out a loud, and not just in my head, I cried and cried but felt a massive wave of relief as my friends hugged me and kept saying they still love me and accept me...That was 2 years ago, but my family still thinks I am straight and are constantly trying to send me on dates or set me up with guys...I don't have a big family and even in that small unit, I don't talk at all or have any relationship with my biological father... I have struggled for years with anxiety and depression, and even attempted suicide 3 times and just had no will to live or breathe for a while...It just hurt too much to wake up each day and live. But eventually with counselling and the right medication I was able to slowly come out of this dark hole.But these things became even better when I met my partner Nicole. She has helped me through so many dark days and she has filled me with so much happiness and love. She is all I want in this life and I want to make it known to everyone that she is my love, my life, my life partner, my best friend and my soulmate.... All I wanted is for my family (mom, sister and brother) to accept me and to also accept Nicole into the family and show her the same love and respect that her family shows towards me and our relationship.I have tried to bring up the topic of same-sex marriages and homosexuality in numerous discussions with my family but I keep getting shut off or told to change the topic :( I even tried to openly say I'm going to a pride parade but was told that if I did that I would have to leave the house (I ended up going secretly...)I am getting to a point where I have to break ties and my relationship with my family so that I can be happy and live the life I want to and to live on my own terms the way I wish to live the rest of my days on this planet, with Nicole by my side...So last week I decided I'm going to call everyone up to my apartment for a family discussion and tell them exactly what I want and need to say... (I told my family Nicole would be joining us because they did not know we were living together for a while now)The day arrived and it came with a bit of hostility but I still pushed forward trying to keep my calm and not storm out!So I started discussing my life choices and how I wanted to start a life with Nicole (which was met with confusion at first then with angry outbursts of how I'm a sinful person and that I enjoy bringing shame and disgrace to the family and that I have no regard for respect and love towards my mother....ALL BECAUSE I WAS SAYING I AM A LESBIAN!) They are such difficult people...Then I tried to calm everyone down and tried to explain my sexuality and that I wanted them to be at my wedding to Nicole (which in my ideal life you wouldn't ever need any explanation or "coming out" if you were gay, because it would just be as normal as society saw straight couples)My mother refused to accept what I was saying and my siblings were not helping either as they were fueling my mother's hatred towards homosexuality...They even brought up religion and said it was not allowed to be gay...but I responded say all religions should be about love and if religion is about love it will accept all beings exactly the way they are! After that the entire conversation got so heated and I could see that this was ending up being futile and I couldn't believe that my own family, my own mother would threaten to disown me; if I went forward with the wedding and ahead in my life as a proud lesbian...The entire discussion was ruined and they all stormed out and Nicole and I were left so disheartened at their hate and judgement towards us when all we have done so far is shown them respect.I would have thought that in today's world that they would be more accepting and forward thinking but clearly I was wrong....Time and life is moving past us so fast each day and I don't want to waste another moment trying to convince them to accept me for who I am and accept my relationship... so do I just move on without them so that I can be with Nicole or do I go ahead but keep trying to reach out towards them in the hope that one day they will accept me? I want to start the next chapter in my life....What do I do?