I'm feeling okay now, even though I still remember what happened that night where I felt so hurt and betrayed. I still talk to that "friend", I even told her about how I felt with her "joke". I forgave her already but I can't stop feeling awkward and feel like she's not true anymore.. same with my other friends/people. I feel like they're just being nice when I'm around, but talking sh*t behind my back. I used to feel free sharing some secrets with them, but now, I don't know. And because of this, I feel alone.. Because there are things that are a bit awkward if I share it with my parents lol. But I believe I'll find true friends someday.. maybe..