I'm not sure what this is..im writing this from a different room of my "boyfriends". Im just tired of the abuse...im more tired of myself for accepting it. All my fake "im done, im leaving you! This is too far" and then me coming back. Im so stupid. Im desperate and I don't know what to do. Im scared when im around him...all my friends have given up. They told me they are done if I went back to him. Im an idiot. I just wanted to vent. I don't blame any one else besides me...I just wish I could be happy and not afraid..
Sincerely, and hopeful..