I am turning 23
For most people, I'm still young, I should be enjoying my youth, be in school, maybe do a bit of working during the holidays but I don't have to if I don't want to.
But that's not the case
I wanted to have achieved something by 23. To have some sort of solid achievement that I could proudly call my own even if it's a 4500 bob house sitting in some shanti somewhere. It would still be mine. I could proudly call it mine. But I don't have that and my turning 23 with nothing solid makes me feel worthless to be turning 23.
I don't want to turn having achieved nothing and feeling nothing. ..part of me would rather not turn at all if my birthday gets here and I have nothing to show for it 💔😔💔