i wanna sleep but i don't even see a point i'm just gonna wake up and feel the exact same. I feel like im gonna relapse and idk what to do about it cus i dont have anyone that would be willing to help or listen to me. I just dont feel like theres a point anymore, ive been planning my suicide for weeks now. I dont wanna get help, i dont wanna go to see a doctor cus what if i get diagnosed with something, what if i get diagnosed with something and i scare people off. idek what to do anymore.