Lately I feel like I'm drifting farther and farther away from my friends and whatever I do I can't get rid of the thought that one day soon they're gonna stop talking to me. I've always bottles up my emotions especially in front of my friends. But lately I've wanted to tell them about what's really going on in mi life. The past year has been really hard for me; I developed anorexia nervosa at the beginning of quarantine and to cope with giving up that I started self harming and attempted to take my life multiple times, the last time being last week. I'm still struggling with both and not one knows about either. Also recently my cat that I've had scone i was 1 was eaten by an animal, and I still haven't told anyone outside of my family. Every time I think in going to tell some one I always end up masking my feelings and acting like nothing has happened. Can someone please give me some advice or tell me what's wrong with me. I've always hidden my feelings especially negative ones but i feel like lately its been getting a lot more extreme.