Someone said to me, "what if it had happened to a loved one?" And I just can't stop thinking about it. It just makes so much sense. What if someone had come around and given my best friend hope, light, and love and then walked off on them? I hadn't realized how shitty it was. I never did. But, just fuck it, Ed. I don't understand you, but I can't even ask. Why why why did I let you do it? Why did ypu even do it? Fuckkkkkkkkk. You did it so many times and I was just so fucking clueless. So fucking clueless. Fuck it fuck it fuck it. Fuck you.