I feel like I’m a terrible person. I hate how I look and I always say I’m going to do something about it but I never do. Now I’m at the point where I can’t even look at myself in the mirror. Not only that but I feel like I’m not a good aunt. My niece always asks me to play with her or go outside and I always make excuses when I’m reality I’m not doing anything just sitting or laying in my bed. I’m pathetic and it’s becoming obvious as she gets older. It’s getting to the point she doesn’t even want to hang out with me anymore. Because of how I look I’ve become super clingy to my boyfreind and it’s pushing him away and I don’t want to lose him but at the same time I know he doesn’t want to be seen with me because of how much weight I’ve gained. He used to take me everywhere and now he doesn’t take me anywhere except morels to have sex. I feel so disgusted with myself sometimes I think maybe this world is better off without me.