okay this is the first time writing one of these so im sorry if im not good. So my mom has had a addiction to xanax and and my dad has been addicted to dope. my dad evenually went to dui and my mom never got off xanax and, I remeber when she would take a couple she would fall asleep for about four hours then wake up and be really really mad when my dad wasnt there. And abusive mainly to me bc my brother was little but i remeber her chocking me till everything went black and my legs felt straight like hair. Bc i forgot my romper at my aunts house. She would pin me aginst walls and spit in my face and push her face aginst mine and screem and slap,kick,pull hair,pinch and then a couple years later i was in the fifth grade and was running for student counsil. That morning she insisted on doing my hair and burnt me and i yell ow and she did it again right after on purpose and i started crying and she started calling me a braty bitch and then we were in the car at 7eleven. And she told me to get out the car and i said okay and then she said nvm cuz i would have told my dad so i got back in and we drove to school and it was my turn to go and she left. Like walked out and left. i have never played a sport i have had to skip school bc she would leave for weeks and i would have to watch my brother and when i would go back i was bullied by students and teachers would yell at me for not having an excuse. im going into 8th grade now and in 7th grade a boy tried to walk with me he was my cousins friend so i wasnt really worried while i was going to pick up my brother from school he asked me where i was going and i said to pick up my brother. He said your pretty and then i relized what he wanted so i started walking faster and he was like so your going to ignore me now and i noded yes and he tried to grab me by my waist and i pushed him and he said im going to shoot up your brothers school and make sure he dies that was probably one of the most pathetic things i ever heard so i said fuck you and went and got my brother and told my gym coach the next day and he was expelled. Um after that i was called a "tease" and i belong to the streets i tried to kill myself after that the first time i tried to kill my self i was 8 i have tried 5 times mainly when my family abandone me and my dad and brother i had to sleep in a truck infont of buildings. I stopped eating and getting out of the car and then my dad got druck one night and then we were driving somewhere to sleep for the night and we crashed i had like a panic attack or something it was hard to breath and i kept on screaming why did you do that dad for about 5 minutes i remeber no one texted me back when i told them what happened not even my older brother and then we started staying with one of my dads good friends his name was josh he as a drunk and a child molester he tried to get me to say iwas olde than 17 . i didnt tho and he was very touchy it was really scary cuz idk but i felt trapped and he would call me honey sweetheart so now everytime someone calls me that iget really scrared cuz idk it reminded me of him idk whats wrong with me i dont understand why no one wants me the only reason im here is my brothers this isnt my WHOLE story obviously but this this is part of it im only 14 im sorry