I sometimes feel so numb that thinking about death doesn’t scare me anymore. I don’t know what’s right and wrong anymore. I keep facing hurdles and my physical strength keeps giving up. I am tired. I wish I could make it work I wish I could walk away... don’t know if I fully want to be on this path or even here in this life. I see and feel myself fading away from within. Don’t think he truly loves me because the pain he causes me says otherwise.