uncontrollable feelings

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sigh, why can't i control my own feelings. i dont want to be THIS obsessive. everytime i thought I've been toned down there's always something happened that proved me wrong. last year's me was really bad to the point i got frightened of myself and started thinking that I'm as bad as a monster, and now the current me is just as bad as last year's me. i hate myself, i dont deserve to feel love or be loved because i always end up being obsessive about it. i just want to be normal, to love in a normal amount without being obsessed. this feelings is tiring me out but i dont know how to get rid of it, i cant believe something that happened over 2 years ago made me this bad, i never thought it'd affect me THIS much. this really sucks