My lifes not perfect either.. I like to think a good friendship/relationship requires effort from both sides. One side can't carry all the weight. I also think communication is required, being good or bad news. Something i suck at.I'm so used to having to handle these things alone. So when someone else comes into the picture , its not easy for me to share or communicate my feelings. Its easier for me to help someone else then myself. When it comes to family I'm not comfortable hugging or telling them i love them , or telling them about my problems. Growing up it was never something we did. So i learned to bury those things in my mind. Or run from things that hurt me. Rather then facing them. N I've paid for it in the long run. Its gotten easy for me to put myself down or tell myself i don't deserve certain things or people. Idk im just ranting , rather then keeping it in my mind. Blahh