The saddest thing is having someone who you spent 8 years with and had two children with use those children against you. I lost hope in the court system of my state because it didn't come down to the healthiest and stable parent, it went to the parent that was able to bullshit everyone.My son is 7 and my daughter is 5. For years he didn't want to be a parent, didn't want to take care of them or help. The relationship died and out of spite he forced a 50-50 custody which doesn't benefit the kids at all. He continues daily to not only try to continue to have power over me, but to manipulate and put down those too young to understand.I didnt get full custody because I wanted to escape him, because I'm human and wanted a break from my kids 2 days a month, because his family lied to the court with the same regurgitated story, and because they don't care about the abuse to the mother that happened in front of children. All they cared for was having both parents involved no matter the harm it puts on the rest.Its so frustrating and heartbreaking to be on a week on/week off schedule. I do everything in my soul to support my children, while he pawns them off carelessly to his family who openly show favoritism to the youngest while treating the oldest like he doesnt belong. I've been told there's nothing I can do about it unless something drastic changes. I'm stuck watching my son cry daily about not wanting to return to his fathers, listening to my children tell me about the safety hazards they're put through but don't know any better, and knowing I can't protect them because the court favored lies over truth. Being that they're so young, the court won't hear what they have to say either.I have so many sleepless nights because of this. Its so mentally draining while also bringing out rage and hatred for this one man who is able to play victim and everyone falls for it.I have hopes that one day he will be found out for the abusive fraud that he is, but sadly it seems like good fortune is never on my side.Thank you for reading, I'm sorry for the vent.