It’s crazy how low you can feel after a very average day. Like nothing bad happened to me, I have supportive friends and family but I sometimes feel empty. Like something has scooped out the core of me. I attempt to fill this lonely empty void with others peoples shit, food, cigarettes, shopping etc, I know it’s not healthy but I don’t know any other ways to deal with it. That’s a lie. I can’t build up the motivation /will power to do anything about it. I sometimes wish I was one of those women that enjoys waking up at 6.30 and then does yoga. But I’m not. I try for about a week and I stop. I can’t seem to get motivated to do anything anymore. All I want to do is stay in bed and sleep. However, when I want to sleep I can’t. Why can’t I just help myself? I did therapy and I accept myself more but obviously not enough to help my overall wellbeing. The funny thing is I teach a lot about mental health, mindfulness and wellbeing but I can’t action it for myself. i try and to be positive- I know I am a good person, I try my best at work and for others so why can’t I do it for myself ? to anyone reading this I hope you know - your important, you are worthy of love and today might not be your day but tomorrow is a new opportunity to make positive changes to your world. I just wish someone would take the time to say that to me.