Welcoming the end

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I wouldn’t mind if I died. I don’t want to commit suicide, but if something happened that killed me, I’d accept it. I’m still living my life, as happy as I can, but I’m hurting in ways I can’t explain and I don’t know how to fix it. I’m in a deep rut that I am finding it hard to believe that I will climb out of. Part of me feels like I am allowing myself to feel this way and makes me feel like I need to just decide to be better. Another part of me wonders if I need therapy and medication to pull me out. All I know is I have very high happy moments, and very low sad moments and everything in between and I feel like have to wear a mask so no one will worry about me.... even myself sometimes...