Sitting hidden in an office, looking over my shoulder, careful not to get caught, wanting just a moment to breathe and continue.. cleaning.. I’m a cleaner, not a successful smart person working in some snazzy job. I’m in my 20’s I’ve got a degree and hopefully soon a business of my own (if I can find some motivation to continue trying). But for now I’m stuck in a loop, in a rut, screaming with no sound, begging with no words. Depression is hitting hard, anxiety is through the roof, what am I doing with my life? Will I ever be successful? Confident? What am I doing? Doubting myself always, thinking too much yet too little, spending whatever free time I have, in bed forcing myself to sleep (you forget about life when you’re sleeping) what am I doing? Why can’t I just help myself? What can’t I feel better?