What am I doing?My spouse and I hate each other. Each of us is waiting for the other to die. Neither of us cares who goes first. I hope it's me. I would just do it, but we have dogs, and I can't justify abandoning them. If it just happens, fine. But not on purpose. Thank God I am sick and could just drop dead any minute. Also thank God I am old and have done everything. I will not feel I missed anything. In fact, there are a lot of things I wish I had missed. Especially marriage. I know men are a pain, but women can be, too. I guess anyone can. I wonder if anyone gets what they expect, or want, in a marriage. Bottom line, I wouldn't do it again, and wouldn't advise anyone else to marry, either. My spouse is lucky; she enjoys being infuriated. I once told her if she isn't mad, I think she might be dead.