I had this girl. She’s amazing, I became her person and she became my person. I mean we confided in each other. Well I broke her heart. She found my iPad and it had porn on it and I lied about it. I never meant to hurt her or make her feel unwanted. I love this girl more than anything. I started going to counseling talking to someone who could help me and to show the girl I love that it was never going to happen again. We got back together and things were great then we broke up again. She wanted time and space but I was so in my head. I have a past of depression and anxiety and it consumed me and losing her brought it all back. I was put on anti depression meds and I have these awful dreams of killing myself. I tried to tell her what was going on in my head and that I needed to talk to her. Yes I’ll admit I lashed out before this but I wasn’t in my right mind set. Now she doesn’t talk to me at all. She wants nothing to do with me. I love this girl with all my heart and she always calmed my storms in my head. I don’t know what to do and I’m just miserable everyday what do I do? How can I get this girl back and show her what she means to me.