Once upon a time, there was a creative mind. Everyone felt it's awesomeness and jolly nature. It always made everyone around it happy and the ideas it used to give in different creative fields like writing, drama and what not,used to blow away peoples' minds. Everything was going so smooth, until one day ENGINEERING happened. The happy and creative mind was pulling towards depression and anxiety and it was totally unaware of that. Not only, it was creative , but also intelligent and always managed to succeed and always stood first. But now, it started lacking even the basic happiness in everything. It's like the creative mind is dying.........Yes,that's what I feel about Engineering.As a kid, I always used to tell everyone that I wanted to be a choreographer,then an actor,then a writer and many more professions. I may not be sure about what I wanted to be at that time.But there was one thing, that I was sure about all along and that was I will be anything but an Engineer.I was a bright student in school, even managed to top the class most of the times,but I always liked to be creative. And above that I hated computer, even though I used to score a lot. Then as time took it's toll, since I was so confused, my parents told me to be an engineer thinking that I was a bright student and that was the only thing needed for engineering. Being a 15 year old kid, with no knowledge about the outside world and it's working, I opted that and went to the worst place I could have gone, i.e. KOTA. That place made one of the most joyful and highly extrovert person like me, one of the most depressed person that I know about. It's been 4 years and still anxiety kicks in whenever I hear and think about that place.So I landed upon doing the two things I most hated,engineering and computers.I am a Computer Science Engineer.Still somehow I managed to get good grades in engineering too, even learnt some programming languages. But my God knows, how much I hate doing what I am doing. I am that type of person that can sing in front of many people in an event, even with a bad voice. That's how much I used to love life and enjoy every moment of it. But it's like I don't even know who I am. Every night as the darkness grows,it's like it grows inside me too. I could not stop myself from crying every night thinking the person I am becoming .I so want to laugh normally again. I have many and many friends and not even one is aware, how deeply depressed I am, not even my family members. Right now my placements are going on, everyone is preparing, while I am the one who can only think about this whole engineering was a mistake...in short, my whole life is a mistake !