I've always wonder what is my purpose in this world? I feel like the world has only given me pain in my entire life... yes, I might be happy, but after that? Another problem arrives in. Do I still need to be alive? Do I need to hold on? I can't take things anymore, I want to rest. I want to sleep forever and stop existing yet I don't want to hurt the people that loves me. I hate myself so much, I hate my thoughts, my life... is there something I can do? I'm scared for the things that might happen in the future... will I get better? Or things will only worsen?