My life is a mess of different tragic events. I am 14 and my step dad is a drug addict he spends all his time onto it and cares for nothing else. He is very metal abusive. No matter what time he gets home there is no talking we all have to be quiet and listen to hi aloud obnoxious tv. He always judges me and my 4 brothers/sisters. We live in a hotel by the way. He always steal from us and we sometimes have no food or clothing etc. I hate living my life worried about all this. Ever Sence 6th grade I loved school only because I was able to leave my problems at home. I wish I could do something but there is really nothing I can do. I write music to cope with all this but I still feel suicidal because why live in a world I have no control over. Why live in a world like this. I have 3 and half years left of all this torcher. O forget to mention the fact that he wakes me up at night on a school night just to tell me how much pills he had done. He steal our money to get this stuff. And acts all perfect. He talks everyone how it's our fault but it's definitely not true. I'm tired of watching my mom cry herself to sleep. We been sleeping on floors and hotels for the past 5 years. I hope you can give me some advice. And ps as I type they are arguing over drugs and money.