Hi, I'm Mr. anonymous (because I can't say my real name). Ever since I was a little kid I was depressed and suicidal, and my stepdad would make it worse by verbally abusing me and claiming that I have a split personality just because I acted in a certain way to get out of trouble. I remember this one time where I lit a tissue on fire and blamed it on an "evil spirit". Btw my family would always threaten to lock me up in a mental hospital if I didn't stop misbehaving so yeah to say the least my childhood was fucked up. fast-forwarding time and my parent's sister and later brother is my so-called "co gardens" every time I made a mistake they would hold it against me and bring it up every chance they get, tell others that I constantly lie to them which is not true, monitor everything I do give me hell for standing up for myself when I told someone about the abuse, etc. I'm falling college courses and then I stupidly search for something about OD and fall and asleep and when they found out everything got worse and my dad accused me of seeking attention and yells at me for being selfish etc. I did have a fiance but my parents split him and me up now i can't even contact him because of the accusation of him "mentally and physically rapping me".