why does this friendship feel so one sided?why am i always the one who starts the conversation?am i not as interesting as i used to be?? do you have better friends now??? am i just a lame person you don’t like anymore? should i stop bothering you?why does it feel like i like you too much and you like me too little?does being best friends not mean anything special to you since you have new best friends every year?i thought you said i was your ideal friend, but why doesn’t it feel that way anymore? i thought you said you would want to spend your perfect day with me, but how valid is that if you’re too nice?why is it that our conversations are so awkward now? what happened to the ease we had just a dozen weeks ago? am i not as cool as i seemed before now that i’ve let my guard down around you? do i have to act funny and cute around you? is the me with walls up better than the real me? do you even care anymore? should i? does it even matter to you that i love you?