Here is what happened today in my sucking life......... I really want someone to share these things with someone but one is so dear or i would say close to me that i can share these things..I just completed my 12th and because of corona my exam is getting postponed again and again.. okay i was about to write something and wrote something else.. sorry.. actually write now i can't see the keyboard properly because of my tears.. yeah i m crying!!! and nobody really cares.. it's paining inside something very deep very very deep... it just pierced my heart in two halves.. so it started with my brother who is way to younger than me but behaves as if he is elder than me.. which i don't really like.. so we were in the same room then my brother when i was gazing on phone started that " what will you do in life?i m really tensed about you.." (this is what he does most of the time) "you have your exam in September and you are always on your phone" then i told him that i m just doing some work.. but he generally go to history and finds out that what i was doing and that's irritating.. i know you'll think that its a petty issue between siblings.. but no when it crosses the line it pains you that your brother don't believe you.. (this is the reason most of my secrets are on me because my mother father and grandparents think that i m wrong..) so, continuing what happened after that that he started hitting me on my bumps(which any girl would not at all like.. at least i feel uncomfortable).. then i told him not to do that again calming my anger once again..( here once again means that many a times he did this but i didn't say much..) then again e hit me.. then just lost it... don't get scared that i hit him to death.. but i think what happened next was the worst.. when i was slapping him my mother saw me.. and she thought that it was my fault.. then my father came in so much anger with loud voice and started shouting at me and him like anything.. and hit him and then me(it's paining really.. i cant write properly...)then i just lost it idk y .. i started staring at him in anger &amp;threw the pen and went in another room.. then my grandmother(who doesn't like me because he wanted a boy) came and started sympathizing my brother and told my father that it was my fault and he came and started shouting at me without listening what happened.. and i can't really explain what all he said to me.. i m hurt... really.. this is the worst day in my life... btw there are many such days like this but this becomes the worst cuz my grandfather started crying.............. sometimes it feels like suicide is the best option but i am determined to not do it.. i have my whole (beautiful ) life ahead i will face all the problems with courage and try to smile all the time.. i will not talk to anybody in my house,.... PS: i don't know how many people read this but last para is important for life if you are damn to upset then also..

Here is what happened today in my sucking life.........I really want someone to share these things with someone but one is so dear or i would say close to me that i can share these things..I  just completed my 12th and because of corona my exam is getting postponed again and again.. okay i was about to write something and wrote something else.. sorry.. actually write now i can't see the keyboard properly because of my tears.. yeah i m crying!!! and nobody really cares.. it's paining inside something very deep very very deep... it just pierced my heart in two halves.. so it started with my brother who is way to younger than me but behaves as if he is elder than me.. which i don't really like.. so we were in the same room then my brother when i was gazing on phone started that " what will you do in life?i m really tensed about you.." (this is what he does most of the time) "you have your exam in September and you are always on your phone" then i told him that i m just doing some work.. but he generally go to history and finds out that what i was doing and that's irritating..i know you'll think that its a petty issue between siblings.. but no when it crosses the line it pains you that your brother don't believe you.. (this is the reason most of my secrets are on me because my mother father and grandparents think that i m wrong..) so, continuing what happened after that that he started hitting me on my bumps(which any girl would not at all like..  at least i feel uncomfortable).. then i told him not to do that again calming my anger once again..( here once again means that many a times he did this but i didn't say much..) then again e hit me.. then just lost it... don't get scared that i hit him to death.. but i think what happened next was the worst.. when i was slapping him my mother saw me.. and she thought that it was my fault.. then my father came in so much anger with loud voice and started shouting at me and him like anything.. and hit him and then me(it's paining really.. i cant write properly...)then i just lost it idk y    .. i started staring at him in anger &threw the pen and went in another room.. then my grandmother(who doesn't like me because he wanted a boy) came and started sympathizing my brother and told my father that it was my fault and he came and started shouting at me without listening what happened..and i  can't really explain what all he said to me.. i m hurt... really.. this is the worst day in my life... btw there are many such days like this but this becomes the worst cuz my grandfather started crying.............. sometimes it feels like suicide is the best option but i am determined to not  do it.. i have my whole (beautiful ) life ahead i will face all the problems with courage and try to smile all the time.. i will not talk to anybody in my house,....PS: i don't know how many people read this but last para is important for life if you are damn to upset then also..