can I just- not exist? Can I die please? I don’t want to be here. I don’t want to being in school for a third of my life and work for two thirds of the rest and drop dead. Why am I even here I didn’t ask to have all this shit here why does this all happen to me? I’m losing the game of life and I’m fine with that just let me rest please. I fucking hate this feeling I don’t want it and if we are reborn can I just not? Can I be among the stars of the celestial body of the galaxy. Or reincarnated to something with meaning and know the answers of this life and my soul cease to exist? Is that too much to ask for!