What’s the point

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Started the day off ok today, partner then got upset, plans didn’t go through.

we argued for ages, I’ve been told to leave and stay away so I do that, hour n half later after I’ve decided that because I didn’t have enough money for transport was to walk.

she messages says she feels like she’s thrown in the towel to early, I say my piece she then says we will have one conversation and it will determine the outcome of our relationship. bare in mind I’ve been with this girl for 4 years.

i get to the door and all I get off her is her friend is coming over and she’ll probably be doing shit with him

ive never been as fucking low as I have today I’m not going to do anything stupid like self harm etc but I’m honestly between a rock and a hard place with wondering why I’m even bothering to carry on this life.