Tonight might just be the night. If I end it now everything for my family might get better. I won't be a burden anymore. I'll be dead. I won't have to live like this anymore. I can be free. It's not like anyone is going to miss me. It's not like some guy is going to be like, oh shit my soulmate died. It's not like I will leave any friends behind. It's not like my family will really care. They don't care now so why would they care when I'm dead? I know it's sick but I want them to watch. I want to leave that memory for my dad. So he finally knows what he did to me. I want them both to know what happened. That I wasn't happy. I want them to know for the rest of their lives there was something they could have done and just didn't think it was worth it. I love them but if I have to be trapped why can't they be to? I don't know. I just don't want to be trapped anymore. I want someone to love and care about me. I want to be safe. But I am never going to get those things. So wants the point?

Tonight might just be the night. If I end it now everything for my family might get better. I won't be a burden anymore. I'll be dead. I won't have to live like this anymore. I can be free. It's not like anyone is going to miss me. It's not like some guy is going to be like, oh shit my soulmate died. It's not like I will leave any friends behind. It's not like my family will really care. They don't care now so why would they care when I'm dead? I know it's sick but I want them to watch. I want to leave that memory for my dad. So he finally knows what he did to me. I want them both to know what happened. That I wasn't happy. I want them to know for the rest of their lives there was something they could have done and just didn't think it was worth it. I love them but if I have to be trapped why can't they be to? I don't know. I just don't want to be trapped anymore. I want someone to love and care about me. I want to be safe. But I am never going to get those things. So wants the point? 

please do not do it i’m going through stuff with my girlfriend right now and i’m feeling like i shouldn’t be here anymore either but i have hope for me which means i have hope for you please don’t we can be here for each other

please do not do it i’m going through stuff with my girlfriend right now and i’m feeling like i shouldn’t be here anymore either but i have hope for me which means i have hope for you please don’t we can be here for each other 

Re: What's the point?

You won't be able to see what those things are like unless you're here to live for them. Life has and always will be unexpected. Please don't end it now, please. Your life may seems worthless to you, but is it really? It's not, its really isn't. We're all given life for a certain reason, and we're not given anything we can't handle. Being strong is hard when you have it rough, but being strong is such a wonderful thing. Please don't end it, please please please! (I recommend praying dude) but please don't end it as your life isn't worth being ended now. death, judgement, heaven or hell. thats the last 4 things, so please don't make them come sooner that when its supposed to. please

You won't be able to see what those things are like unless you're here to live for them. Life has and always will be unexpected. Please don't end it now, please. Your life may seems worthless to you, but is it really? It's not, its really isn't. We're all given life for a certain reason, and we're not given anything we can't handle. Being strong is hard when you have it rough, but being strong is such a wonderful thing. Please don't end it, please please please! (I recommend praying dude) but please don't end it as your life isn't worth being ended now. death, judgement, heaven or hell. thats the last 4 things, so please don't make them come sooner that when its supposed to. please 

Hi, It's the author. I would be happy to talk with you and help if I can. I'm sorry you are going through stuff with your girlfriend. I would be happy to talk but on the whole kms thing I won't make any promises. If you do want to talk timeisrelative1234@gmail.com that's my email. If not I get that and have a wonderful day! thank for taking the time to respond

Hi, It's the author. I would be happy to talk with you and help if I can. I'm sorry you are going through stuff with your girlfriend. I would be happy to talk but on the whole kms thing I won't make any promises. If you do want to talk timeisrelative1234@gmail.com that's my email. If not I get that and have a wonderful day! thank for taking the time to respond

Hi it's the author again. Thank you for your comment and support. But I have tried praying. Asking for help. I have tried everything. Nothing ever changes. There is nothing that will save me. because everything I can think I have tried. If I am going to hell anyways why not speed things a long? Thank you for your response! But I am sorry I don't think anything is going to happen, it's not going to get better. so why keep doing it? Have a wonderful day!

Hi it's the author again. Thank you for your comment and support. But I have tried praying. Asking for help. I have tried everything. Nothing ever changes. There is nothing that will save me. because everything I can think I have tried. If I am going to hell anyways why not speed things a long? Thank you for your response! But I am sorry I don't think anything is going to happen, it's not going to get better. so why keep doing it? Have a wonderful day!

God doesn’t promise us happiness. In fact, Paul tells the Philippian church (<a href="https://biblia.com/bible/esv/Phil%201.29-30" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">Philippians 1:29-30</a>) AND the Roman church (<a href="https://biblia.com/bible/esv/Rom%208.17" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">Romans 8:17</a>) that suffering is a privilege we get to share with Christ! But we can find JOY in the midst of our suffering, because we know “what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will reveal to us later.” (<a href="https://biblia.com/bible/esv/Rom%208.18" rel="noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">Romans 8:18</a>) That joy is the result of God’s love, and that’s so much better than temporary happiness! Don't kill yourself as God promises happiness in his Kingdom

God doesn’t promise us happiness. In fact, Paul tells the Philippian church (Philippians 1:29-30) AND the Roman church (Romans 8:17) that suffering is a privilege we get to share with Christ! But we can find JOY in the midst of our suffering, because we know “what we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will reveal to us later.” (Romans 8:18) That joy is the result of God’s love, and that’s so much better than temporary happiness!Don't kill yourself as God promises happiness in his Kingdom

Hi... I truly believe that everything happens fr a reason and everyone has a purpose on this earth. Sweetheart u r not worthless, u r so important. U r so brave, so strong and u deserve so much happiness and love.Right now u gotta struggle and work fr it. Its an unsaid rule that whenever u take a step forward, something or someone will push u back 10 but if u give up it would mean u let the negativity win. U r so much stronger than u kn.It might seem like u wont be missed but u will, u will so much. Please dont do it....please fight through this, i know u r tired of fighting sweetheart but it will all be worth it one day. Please hold on....&lt;3

Hi... I truly believe that everything happens fr a reason and everyone has a purpose on this earth. Sweetheart u r not worthless, u r so important. U r so brave, so strong and u deserve so much happiness and love.Right now u gotta struggle and work fr it. Its an unsaid rule that whenever u take a step forward, something or someone will push u back 10 but if u give up it would mean u let the negativity win. U r so much stronger than u kn.It might seem like u wont be missed but u will, u will so much. Please dont do it....please fight through this, i know u r tired of fighting sweetheart but it will all be worth it one day. Please hold on....<3

Please baby reply back if you want my socials please talk to me I need you. Don’t end it all so many people care and you are worth a million I love you! Bb I don’t know you but I know your a human out there and are very special💖

Please baby reply back if you want my socials please talk to me I need you. Don’t end it all so many people care and you are worth a million I love you! Bb I don’t know you but I know your a human out there and are very special💖

You will get love, safety and care. I want you to know that you’re doing amazing right now, even if no one told you that. You are growing. I’m not going to say that bullshit of everything is good and that it’s all going to be over. No, I know, it’s literally going to be a shitty hard journey to have the feeling of being content and happiness. I had the same feeling as you, but isn’t it all temporary now? (I know that sounds harsh and inconsiderate) I don’t know what your dad did to you or your family situation but I’ve been through an abusive household fearing for my life everyday. I never had friends because I was socially awkward since my parents never properly talked to me and I still am scared of loud places. I thought that if I died it would help with everything, I’ve tried suffocating myself and overdosing on pills. All that suffering led me to a thought that we’re all going to die anyways so why not do everything before dying. Do more things you’ve never done before in your life, maybe you’ll actually find a reason to live... Be your own hero. Be the independent person you need for yourself.

You will get love, safety and care. I want you to know that you’re doing amazing right now, even if no one told you that. You are growing. I’m not going to say that bullshit of everything is good and that it’s all going to be over. No, I know, it’s literally going to be a shitty hard journey to have the feeling of being content and happiness. I had the same feeling as you, but isn’t it all temporary now? (I know that sounds harsh and inconsiderate) I don’t know what your dad did to you or your family situation but I’ve been through an abusive household fearing for my life everyday. I never had friends because I was socially awkward since my parents never properly talked to me and I still am scared of loud places. I thought that if I died it would help with everything, I’ve tried suffocating myself and overdosing on pills. All that suffering led me to a thought that we’re all going to die anyways so why not do everything before dying. Do more things you’ve never done before in your life, maybe you’ll actually find a reason to live... Be your own hero. Be the independent person you need for yourself. 

Hi again its me (the author). Thank you so much to everyone that replied! You really helped me, thank you! I will try to continue going and I appreciate your support. This is the first time anyone has replied to my stuff, so thank you! Because of you I have new restored hope in humanity. So thank you! To the person that responded an hour ago. I would love to talk with you. You seem like an amazing person! To anyone who reads this if you need to talk to someone my email is timeisrelative1234@gmail.com Have a wonderful day or night! Thank you!

Hi again its me (the author). Thank you so much to everyone that replied! You really helped me, thank you! I will try to continue going and I appreciate your support. This is the first time anyone has replied to my stuff, so thank you! Because of you I have new restored hope in humanity. So thank you!To the person that responded an hour ago. I would love to talk with you. You seem like an amazing person!To anyone who reads this if you need to talk to someone my email is timeisrelative1234@gmail.com Have a wonderful day or night! Thank you!