Earlier I was looking at some old photos. I came across a lot of pictures from when I was a kid. I got so emotional that I had to stop looking at the pictures. Those pictures are of a girl that was one time happy. What happened to that person? What happened to that smile? As with everyone I know how it can be difficult to be an adult. But even then most people are truly happy. I'm not suicidal or anything like that at all, but I think I have depression. It might be something else. But I feel empty inside a lot of times. I smile and I laugh often. But sometimes, especially late nights this feeling comes over me and I feel sad, lonely, sometimes I feel anger and hatred for things that happened in the past. My mind goes blank at times. I can't concentrate or think clearly. I can't even make simple descions at times. I skip a lot of daily hygeine things like taking a shower, brushing my teeth, I sometimes wear the same clothes for at least a week sometimes and I don't care. I avoid social situations. I have serious trust issues with everyone. Sometimes this weird feeling comes over me and I stare at myself in the mirror with a wicked, evil grin on my face looking at my eyes. I'm not homicidal. I don't know where it comes from. Sometimes I have trouble explaining things. Then a while later and I feel more like myself again. Maybe someone that reads this will understand and know what it is that I have. Please be gentle with your words because I easily get my feelings hurt. But if you can explain this in a very simple way to me about what it possibly can be wrong with me I would truly appreciate your help. Thank you.