there seems to be something wrong with me. idk if its past trauma or a defense mechanism but I can't seem to have serious conversations. I will stay silent even if I have something to say. Yesterday me and my boyfriend got into a disagreement I could barely talk to him when we sat down face to face. The words just would not come out and this seems to be an ongoing problem in any relationship I've had. Whats wrong with me. Why can't I open my mouth and speak my mind to the people I love and care about the most. Sometimes it feels dreadful because I would rather stay quiet and lose them then speak up and work things out. As much as I want to speak the words just won't come out. Ill have all these thoughts and come up with things in my head but my mouth is just mute and I freeze up. I go straight to ignoring them after they've given up on trying to talk to me. My boyfriend is currently texting me and asking me why I am like this but I don't even know how to explain that to him. I don't even understand myself. Why is it so hard for me to talk and tell him everything positive or negative on my mind.