I don’t know why I’ve become this way. I miss being myself and not a shell of a person. I feel so empty. I hate that they fueled my internal disgust at myself. I hate that I’m the punching bag for other peoples emotions. A sponge of empathy and i feel everything entirely. I wish I was a little selfish and knew what i wanted. I want to take care of myself so bad. I hate this feeling. I just want you. You’re the only light in my life.