Hello call me kennie, I'm a 19 year old female.. I've noticed for awhile now that i don't like looking at my self in window's or mirror's i just don't like looking at my own reflection.. I mean of course ill look in it when i have to like, putting make up on, getting dressed, doing my hair etc.. but other than that i don't... When i look at myself i don't see what everyone else see's.. what i see is this girl that'll never be pretty or up to standards.. i see my self as my fat 225 pound self but i lost all that weight and i am now 150.. My self image of myself is really bad.. It doesn't matter what i say to myself im always gonna see the worst about me... So to avoid seeing that i avoid looking at myself, when i look months behind at photo's of me i cry cause i realize how beautiful i really am and i dont recognize myself in them and when i go to the mirror i can't see that beautiful girl everyone else see's.. I really hope no one else see's what i see.. I noticed i have a eating disorder and i wont eat for days and continue to exercise.. I see the red flags but i can't do anything about it because i don't see my actual health problem i see myself as that 250 pound girl everyone put down.. i warn you the please be aware of what your doing to your self i basically live off a diet of water, weed, cigarettes and fruit.. Look at the signs and warnings of an eating disorder and get help right away before it gets too bad..