out of everyone else in the world, god made me so fucked up. I'm the unwanted sister and daughter. my own older sister is embarrassed and ashamed of me. I'm fucked up, at only 13. I'm fat, ugly, useless, awkward, and overall I hate myself. the more pain you receive over the years, especially from people your "close" with just makes you want to be even more alone. my own mother and sister are embarrassed of me because of my appearance. I'm sorry that I'm the messed up child out of 6 mother. i hate myself too, and don't worry i will always remember your criticizing comments. i try to be skinny so much. i purged once but ever since then i cant get myself to do it again. why do I have to be like this. out of everyone else in the world.