Honestly I don't get it. I don't understand the point of friendship and relationships when all that ever happens is people sit here and they lie. They say "Hey I'm here for you" and "I'll never leave you" Or how about "You can trust me" Like that's great, I'm glad you 'care' about me. But what about when I'm at my all-time lows. Where are you? Why don't you care? Why aren't you listening to me? I'm not exactly mentally stable. I probably never will be. But I can promise you that I have told EVERYONE that I am a trainwreck. That I am hard to deal with. That I need help. And I'm tired of people saying that they don't care about that and they just want to continue to be there for me.I have one real life friend. She's amazing, everyone else sucks. They left me, betrayed me, used me. So I turned to online friends. I learned real fast that no one cared. I had quite a few online 'friends' and right now, one of them is threatening suicide and I'm worried about her. So then that leaves this person who I kind of just talk to, shes not really a friend at all. And then I got stuck in an abusive friendship with this asshole of a kid. Who manipulated me, gaslighted me, hurt me. And then disappeared, treating me like crap. Then this person who said she wouldn't ever leave decided one day to ghost me and when she came back, never said hi, never. And the last guy, he's gone. He's been ghosting me for awhile and I trusted him. That hurts. I don't know why I waste my time on these people. It's stupid, no one actually cares. No one ever does.