i hate the fact that people on this earth were born pretty and skinny. i just hate it. why can't i be those things? why can't i be smart or athletic or funny? i just exist as an ugly blob. i liked starving myself to loose weight, but my parents noticed and got worried so i stopped because i don't want anyone to know about my insecurities. but i want to do it again. the pain felt so good, and i was starting to see a difference. but here i am, sitting on my fat ass, stuffing my face. i just hate myself so much. i hate how other people think that anyone can just be pretty. i hate how we have expectations to be things i know i could never. i hate everything.