I am a doctor . Supposedly one of the best jobs anyone could have . I’m also a mother and a wife and a daughter . I am at home for a vacation however I’ve just realised I can’t survive anywhere ! I can’t seem to be happy .... let me explain . My mother is a super judgmental women . Don’t get me wrong she’s sweet and helps me and stuff but she never supports me ... never uplifts me ... and I’m afraid I’m turning into her myself ! I’m also 6 months pregnant now with my second baby ... so this could be the ramblings of an emotional pregnant women ... still ... I used to wish I got married into a family that would accept and understand me more... but I didn’t ... my husband doesn’t get me also .... feels like my parents don’t get me ... I feel completely stupid and useless ... my mother used every opportunity to express how she fees about me .... I’m too fat ... I’m too dark .... I’m not being a good mother to my son .... I’m not being a good wife ...I feel like no matter what I do .. no one ever says ok good job! I’m seeking praise from work and home alike. Let me just say I am a good doctor! I work hard and do my job well ... I had a baby while studying MS and managed it better than most other single doctors are doing now a days ... still no one says yea she did it ... am I just needy ? Yes I guess I am ... Cz I’ve been my own cheerleader for the longest time and I’m tired now ... I need someone to validate me ...I’ve never been late to work , never slacked off ... never cut a day of work or lied just to do anything for myself ... I’m always thinking of what more I can do and be better and yet no one seems to care .... why am I so needy ?? What can I do ? Continue my own cheerleading ? You’re a good person! A great mom and a doctor! Keep going ! no one understands... what it’s like to be me ... pregnant ... feeling lonely ... tired all the time .... vomiting still !! Hungry but unable to eat what you want .... and this is suppsed to be my vacation ...

I am a doctor . Supposedly one of the best jobs anyone could have . I’m also a mother and a wife and a daughter . I am at home for a vacation however I’ve just realised I can’t survive anywhere ! I can’t seem to be happy .... let me explain . My mother is a super judgmental women . Don’t get me wrong she’s sweet and helps me and stuff but she never supports me ... never uplifts me ... and I’m afraid I’m turning into her myself ! I’m also 6 months pregnant now with my second baby ... so this could be the ramblings of an emotional pregnant women ... still ... I used to wish I got married into a family that would accept and understand me more... but I didn’t ... my husband doesn’t get me also .... feels like my parents don’t get me ... I feel completely stupid and useless ... my mother used every opportunity to express how she fees about me .... I’m too fat ... I’m too dark .... I’m not being a good mother to my son .... I’m not being a good wife ...I feel like no matter what I do .. no one ever says ok good job! I’m seeking praise from work and home alike. Let me just say I am a good doctor! I work hard and do my job well ... I had a baby while studying MS and managed it better than most other single doctors are doing now a days ... still no one says yea she did it ... am I just needy ? Yes I guess I am ... Cz I’ve been my own cheerleader for the longest time and I’m tired now ... I need someone to validate me ...I’ve never been late to work , never slacked off ... never cut a day of work or lied just to do anything for myself ... I’m always thinking of what more I can do and be better and yet no one seems to care .... why am I so needy ?? What can I do ? Continue my own cheerleading ? You’re a good person! A great mom and a doctor! Keep going ! no one understands... what it’s like to be me ... pregnant ... feeling lonely ... tired all the time .... vomiting still !! Hungry but unable to eat what you want .... and this is suppsed to be my vacation ... 

Being a doctor with MS degree, i can understand the level of work and commitment as i too am a female doctor with MD degree. In your feelings, you are not alone. I too feel like this sometimes. The reason i found in your monologue is i think how your husband behaved with you. It’s because of him, you are feeling like this. He should think twice. For your mother, i don’t know how a mother judges her own child. That’s beyond comprehension. A mother is a person who takes your side even when you’re wrong. I and many who feel the same as you are feeling now validate you.

Being a doctor with MS degree, i can understand the level of work and commitment as i too am a female doctor with MD degree. In your feelings, you are not alone. I too feel like this sometimes. The reason i found in your monologue is i think how your husband behaved with you. It’s because of him, you are feeling like this. He should think twice. For your mother, i don’t know how a mother judges her own child. That’s beyond comprehension. A mother is a person who takes your side even when you’re wrong. I and many who feel the same as you are feeling now validate you. 

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I don't think your life is all horrible at all.Sure your mother or your parents in general don't really understand what you're going through, and your husband doesn't seem to do as well, or how you think your a bad mother to your son and feeling like you're needing attention just because you're pregnant, because I have points to make: <ol><li>It's not your fault your mother never supports you or judges you on how you look as of today, I mean I what I couldn't understand is how she's sweet and helpful yet says you're too fat or dark</li><li>As a point of view as a kid I'd say you're an amazing person. First of all you're a doctor who helps people, the kind of doctor wasn't really specified but the idea of helping still stays the same, what's not great about it? Getting to see the smiles your patients give you after you treated them with care feels great but I assume your problem is far more complicated than that (so I'll leave it out). Second you're a hardworking and responsible woman, you mentioned that you've never been late to work or slacked off or even managed to do your job better than most doctors! That would be an accomplishment I would be proud of. Third it's okay to feel needy about attention sometimes, I experience this too and all I have to say is that no one deserves to feel left out in this world, people need other people to survive. I don't believe in the saying that you need to love yourself before loving others, I believe that you need to feel loved by other people in order to love yourself because who else would show you the true meaning?</li><li>Lastly, don't give up. I know it's a common phrase to hear from someone but hear me out: Don't take other's words too seriously and be your own person to think about what you should worry about. After everything I've read in this rant so far you seem like you're doing a great job and you do need a rest for your hard work in service. Take a rest</li></ol> -12 year old

I don't think your life is all horrible at all.Sure your mother or your parents in general don't really understand what you're going through, and your husband doesn't seem to do as well, or how you think your a bad mother to your son and feeling like you're needing attention just because you're pregnant, because I have points to make:It's not your fault your mother never supports you or judges you on how you look as of today, I mean I what I couldn't understand is how she's sweet and helpful yet says you're too fat or darkAs a point of view as a kid I'd say you're an amazing person. First of all you're a doctor who helps people, the kind of doctor wasn't really specified but the idea of helping still stays the same, what's not great about it? Getting to see the smiles your patients give you after you treated them with care feels great but I assume your problem is far more complicated than that (so I'll leave it out). Second you're a hardworking and responsible woman, you mentioned that you've never been late to work or slacked off or even managed to do your job better than most doctors! That would be an accomplishment I would be proud of. Third it's okay to feel needy about attention sometimes, I experience this too and all I have to say is that no one deserves to feel left out in this world, people need other people to survive. I don't believe in the saying that you need to love yourself before loving others, I believe that you need to feel loved by other people in order to love yourself because who else would show you the true meaning?Lastly, don't give up. I know it's a common phrase to hear from someone but hear me out: Don't take other's words too seriously and be your own person to think about what you should worry about. After everything I've read in this rant so far you seem like you're doing a great job and you do need a rest for your hard work in service. Take a rest-12 year old