I get so jealous when I see friends get things from their parents like a new car or a new phone or lessons for languages or instruments. All my life I have had to teach and push myself. Most people learn languages when their young. We were too poor for that. So many of my peers get together to form bands or play together. We were too poor for that. The latest stuff come out and mummy and daddy have it on a silver spoon. Again too poor with my iPhone 5 in 2020. Dont get me wrong. My parents are incredible and have given me the world of love, despite being a shit couple together. But I just can’t help feeling why me. There’s so much I could give to the world, but I’m working with the best I have. Im really into animations. I draw all the time and I draw using flipa clip and love it. Then I just fall back into this rabbit hole when I see people ‘procreate art’ and realise, I could do so much if I just had access to those tools. Same with an instrument, give me a keyboard or guitar and a willing teacher and I will give it all I got. I’m just wondering where my opportunity went during my childhood.on top of that, my parents didn’t let me go to university because poor and religion says university is bad. I know for sure I would have worked so so hard if I was just given a chance. I don’t know what to do from here. I just want someone to take me under their wing for once. A mentor would be nice.